Freaking Terrifying.

Oh my gosh. Today a girl that just graduated high school asked me if I already had my degree. After I told her I wasn't going to graduate until Spring she followed up her first question with my new favorite question to get after that: What will you do afterwards? My first initial thought is to run away and live in my parents basement until they die and then I can take over the upstairs too!! Muahaha. A lot of people have been asking me lately what I think I am going to do with my life. Eh. Who knows? Here is the game plan as of right now.

* Serve an LDS Mission.

How boss would that be? I mean, I love Jesus Christ and I think service is way awesome, so that gives me the perfect opportunity to serve my Lord because I would be serving His children. Note: This also provides me a buffer with figuring out what I want to do.

* Get a big girl job.

I really don't know what I want to do when I grow up. Lately I have been thinking that I should go out and try my hand at costumes for film. Maybe I will hate it... But I have no idea! I have never tried it. That would be pretty sweet.

* Have long hair.

I think if I have long hair, people will like me more. So... I hope my hair will keep growing :)

Those are some crazy decisions I think! There is so much going on in this world, and putting myself into the workforce of that seems pretty intimidating. But all I really want to focus on right now is graduating. BFA! Sweet.

Receiving Advice

I hate receiving advice. I always like to give advice and share my thoughts, because I am always right. Unfortunately, because I am always right, I lack the ability to receive other people's thoughts and wisdom. Here is a big shout out to the tall man with the white wig that finally helped me see what I was missing. Instead of analyzing a situation he helped me realize that I need to analyze my life!! I am now really excited for the next year and I want to really focus on school and preparing for a mission. Man. Things like this can be so exhilarating!

In other news. If Caitlin is reading this... She might want to stop now before she kills me. Caitlin, my roommate, is out of town and I have been hanging out with her crazy cat. Maybe one day I got bored and painted her talons, yes, I said talons instead of claws. She now has pink talons which I sometimes mistake for being bloody or something gruesome. Anyways... This is the cat! her real name is Sophie... but to me she is the cat. I love her. She is attacking me in this picture and I am not impressed if you were curious.

Also. I loved Cowboys and Aliens and I got bangs. Yep. That is what I did this week.

Only One Hour Left...

I am sitting in the airport waiting for my plane to get ready to go!! I only have one more hour until the departure and I am pretty stoked. My family is playing it up in California and obviously I want to be there with them! I haven't flown in awhile and I feel kind of incapable at this whole airport thing.
In other news. Life is good. I am happy. I play with a small kitten once a day. People think I am mean at work. Coldplay is sounding great, like always. I sometimes miss all my friends from high school, but no one ever really talks to me.

BARBARA! This is for you :)

What crazy times?! A lot of my friends have been doing Tumblr for all of their blogging needs. I use a Tumblr account, but in a quick post interesting things or thoughts on my mind, and I guess I use Blogspot for my more journal type entries. Ha. Like that has happened recently!!

School went really well. Don't worry, I got another scholarship, my dad is very appreciative of that one. He texted me one day just to let me know that he is proud of me and that he loves me. I loved it! I even wrote it down in my journal.

I am working two jobs this summer. I am a manager at the Stadium 8 in Providence. It is a movie theatre, and I have a gold name tag that proves how awesome I am. I am also working at the Old Lyric Repertoire Theatre Company as a stitcher and just general costume technician. It has been really good, and today I got a lot done!

Austin went on his mission today. I am surprised with how hard it has been, but mostly just because I miss my best friend. I got home from work and don't know what to do! He texted me last night before he got set apart and said that this was it for texting and see you in a few years, but my phone was in the car, and I missed it. I replied hoping something would come from it, but it hasn't. I absolutely hate not replying to things, so I wrote him a letter and mailed it off this morning explaining what had happened. I know... I am a creeper.



For all of you that are thinking, who the heck is Austin? I will let you know. Austin was my manager at the movie theatre. Way cute right? He asked me to be his girlfriend in December and we have been together since. Technically I broke up with him last Monday, but it seems as though my mom and grandma were somewhat upset at me for it. They both asked my, why would you go and do that?! But it is okay, like I mentioned, best friends. He even kissed me goodbye. But we dated for FIVE MONTHS! That is the longest relationship I have ever had. We had some really fun times too. We went and saw Wicked in Boise, we went jeeping in Moab, he tolerated my wanting to drive to Idaho just to get out of the valley, we got hot chocolate when it snowed in April, he even came with me to way boring things like school plays and weddings. When I got home from work today he had left me a box of things. He got me my favorite Pringles, Honey Mustard, a freaking amazing watch, and his hoodie... which has been soaked in cologne and it is kind of hard to wear because it is slowly making my throat close off.

Life is good. I really couldn't be happier with all of the things going on. Yeah, things are hard, but just for now. All I need is some patience and this will be somewhat of a cake walk... right?

School Starts Monday?

What a weird break. All I did was work it seems, and I have decided that I don't want to go back to school. I mean, I will be going back to school because I think I would get shot if I didn't, but still. Working isn't so bad. I think this whole growing up thing won't be too hard in the end. Being mature? That might be more challenging, but I don't know. Who is to say? Most of the time I sell tickets in the box office at the movie theatre. If you want to go insane, please just sit there for awhile. One night during a ridiculous shift, my friend and I made this sign. It was way funny at the time.


On October 18, 2010 I deactivated my Facebook account. I won't lie. Not having Facebook has stressed me out beyond all reason. I feel like people really don't care about people unless they have it. Did I get the group invitation asking for addresses to my friend's wedding? Nope. Was I later invited? Nope. It makes me feel dumb and that I am not a real person. How rude, right? A friend at work and I were having a competition to see who could stay off of it the longest with the clause stating that the person who caved owed the other a drink and treat. I was working on Thursday, throat dry and parched, when in walks my coworker with a drink and gummy bears. I had completely forgotten about our deal and I was just stoked to have a drink. I literally jumped up and down when I realized that he had broken the deal. It was way funny! But, now I can't decide if I should join the facebook again and be another face in the swarm of more than 500 million users. Life is so hard!

I'm dating someone. How exciting am I? He is really cool, and it is really low stress because he is going on a mission this spring. I know. I am dating a young one. We went to IKEA this past week and it was so much fun. I have decided I want to be rich and have a really cool house! I mean, why not? Even if I do have to sell my furniture and rotate it every once in awhile, having something modern and really reflect who I am would be really cool. My favorite part of IKEA: eating frozen yogurt and cinnamon rolls while sitting in multiple couches talking about how uncomfortable each one is. So fun. I also really liked slamming all of the drawers and doors and having them catch themselves. Oops. Apparently some of them don't do that though...

My mom asked me to babysit Rachel this weekend. It has been a lot of fun. Mostly I just moped around home because I don't feel well, and Rachel has been out actually doing stuff. She is so cool! We watched Scott Pilgrim vs. the World last night, definitely one of my favorite movies, and we both fell asleep. This here is a picture of us from five years ago. We are so cool. She is my best friend.


I am really eager and excited for school to start. I have the smallest credit load I have ever taken, but it is going to be really intense anyways. I am still on track to graduate Spring 2012. After that I plan on going on a mission, coming back, and then going to graduate school Fall 2014. Life is going really well for me, and the Lord has been blessing me lots. All is well in Caro-land.

Running in Circles

I suddenly feel like I am running in circles. And, it's not like I am running laps and getting fit, but I am running ridiculous circles of all different sizes, and while I am on track and close to finishing I realize I have to jump of two tracks and start again on that circle. In and out I continue to weave, dealing with family, school, fake boyfriends, stressed roommates, work, costume shop, opening a show, finals, building a stupid hat, weddings, and dealing with the continual cringing feeling I get every time I hear sirens go by.
It is quite dreary and cold outside. I love it. I love Christmas, and I am so glad to be able to remember my Savior this time of year. In high school, my BFF Emma and I went to the good ol' Salt Lake City. How fancy that we would be able to find this amazing dress up spot in the Joseph Smith Museum?! It was definitely summer when this was taken.
If you are going to be in Brigham or Logan over the break let me know. I will be living back and forth and want to party like it's 1983. I am sure lots of people loved partying then :)

Black Friday is for the Insane

Yep. This year I chose to actually venture out and take a big ol' bite of Black Friday. Fact. I have never gone black Friday shopping before, at least, not for real. I think there was one day that I realized I was shopping on black Friday, but I was just buying some random miscellaneous items that no one could care about. Possibly milk or makeup. Either way... Not epic.
So my friend says, Caroline, come black Friday shopping with me! Naturally, I said yes. I have a massive crush on this friend boy. So together we stood outside in the cold from 3:40--5:00 a.m. My little feet didn't stand a chance in my thin canvas vans. My legs were shivering violently, trying to get any sort of friction to start warming them up. No worries. I was one of the first 100!! So I got $20 to use Saturday. I actually just got back from using it. Hooray for wool socks and scarf.
Anyways. Black Friday. Truly a day for the insane.